Becoming a Better Person

How does one become a better person? I mean, we all know there are things in our lives we can change. Knowing is half the battle right, but from there, how do you actually make the change?

Here are the things I would like to change about myself.

1) I would like to be less emotional.

I have always been a crier. I would like to be able just to not cry, but that doesn't work for me. I get sad, I cry (obviously!), I get frustrated, I cry, I get mad, I cry, I get overwhelmed, I cry, I get stressed...well, you get the idea! I find that I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be before I had 'Z' but I seem to be getting worse again. I'm putting it down to lack of pregnancy hormones in my body (erm...hun...should we do something about that?). So...how do I stop crying?

2) I would like to be less self absorbed. 

Now, this one covers a multitude of sins! LOL! I would like to not tell everyone how I'm feeling every second of every day and what is ailing me at this moment and time. This blog kind of goes against fixing this issue...but only mum reads it and sometimes writing about it helps, right! But whatever...I don't know why I have this incredible need to tell everyone everything about me, good and bad.

I also want to care more about other people and pay more attention to them. Ask them how they are, find out what's important to them and remember that stuff. I know this would make me a better friend.

3) I want to care less about what people think of me.

Hunny, do I look fat in this? erm...who cares right? I need to do what feels right to me. Do I like the outfit, yes...then darn it, wear it!

I need to be confident in all aspects of my life. This includes work. I feel this need to always be told if I'm doing a good job. Obviously for work I put a spin on it and insist that it's important to know where I can improve...but really...I like/need to be praised.


There are other things of course. I would like to lose weight, I would like to eat better and have more energy, I would like to spend more time with my son/husband/dog. All these things...But...internally, those are the big ones and yes, I know they're all related. It all comes down to self worth/love. But how do I get to that place?

Latest update...

Ok, so I know I said would post more often, and I've not been so good at it!


But tomorrow is a big day for us...actually it's a GINORMOUS day for us. We've bought a house and tomorrow we take possession! So we'll be busy the next few weeks. We're not moving till the 27th so that will give us time to pack and also clean our new house and paint and also plant grass.

Part of me is excited to be moving into my own house where I can hang pictures on the wall and where I'm paying money every month to pay off my mortgage, not someone elses but I'm also dead nervous because this is a huge responsibility. If the bathroom starts to leak this is now our problem, I no longer have a landlord to call on to fix things now. We are responsible for everything...that, is scary! But all in all, I’m excited to be a grown up and stop living like a student (Finally!)

So our house is in a very quite part of town to a very good elementary (forward thinking!). It’s on a bus route so I can still easily get into work even though it does add about 15 minutes to my journey time. There is a very nice park close by with trails and swimming holes great for doggy and little man. It’s also very convenient for our grocery shopping and everything we are currently close to. Although DQ is a little further away now.

But now the important bits, it has a family room and a living room, 3 bedrooms upstairs plus a large storage area, which Richard will use as his office, a dining room and a kitchen eating area, 2.5 bathrooms, a mud room (or two I guess) and two smaller bedrooms in the garage conversion. The Garage conversion could be updated to be a suite but we’d rather the room to have guests and we don’t particularly need to have the additional income at this time. The lot is level so no massive chunks of rock in the back yard and there is a huge deck for summer bbq’s. Lots of room for parking (take that Subaru man!)

It’s on the corner of a cul-de-sac but it faces in rather than on to the main road and even the main road is quite. It’s actually a 30 zone along that stretch of the road. Oh, and the pub is a block away AND they have a shuttle service! LOL!

There are some issues that we have to sort out but pretty much all can be done as we can afford them. The Septic system is brand new and NEVER been used before so that is something we shouldn’t have to worry about.

So tomorrow we take possession of our first house and our first task is to clean. I have honestly never been so excited to clean before! More pictures to follow but to whet your appetite, here is the listing picture of the outside of the house (there isn’t any more grass left due to the septic system being replaced)

I'm Back!

So I figure it’s about time I start blogging again, and no, not because I have more time but because, well, it’s a good idea!


It’s been a long time since I last posted and yes my little man is as cute as ever and up to all sorts of new things. But everything else has changed, well, almost everything else. We no longer live in the UK, we made our big move in October and a lot has happened. So, I’ll start a recap from August and we’ll go from there.

In August we sold everything we could and moved into the in-laws. They were SO good to us considering it was all going to end in tears.

Beginning of September we had a long deserved holiday and probably the last one for a long time (well, last one that doesn’t include camping! LOL!). We went to Crete with the In-laws for 2 weeks and had a fabulous time. We returned home to finish up work and packing and saying goodbye. We had a good gathering the Saturday before we left despite the torrential rain that fell! I refused to cry that night but it makes me so very sad knowing we left all those friends and family behind. I wish we could have just packed them all up and brought them to Canada with us! The Sunday before we left we have a scrummy lunch out with a few friends, a much more intimate gathering to say goodbye…now this is where the tears flowed…and they didn’t stop for a good week.

Saying goodbye to such good friends is never easy and even now I’m shedding a tear or two remembering how hard it was to say goodbye. The 3 days that followed I went indoor skydiving with Sandra and we had a family dinner out at a curry house. More goodbyes and more tears!

We left the house at very early o’clock as we had to get to cargo 4 hours before our flight. That’s right, our faithful companion Moose moved to Canada with us. This was not a goodbye we were prepared to say! After a heart wrenching goodbye with the in-laws I proceeded to cry halfway to Heathrow Airport! I love my in-laws dearly and they were such a help and great support while I lived there. I will always be grateful for what they did for us and how well they let us go.

So we’re in Canada…and this is where we start spending money…Oh, and I don’t have a job yet (at this point!). We need a place to sleep and something to sit on and since we’re not packing up and moving across the pond again, we’re doing it right. On the 12th we moved into our lovely 2 Bedroom basement suite that doesn’t look or feel like a basement suite with loads of additional space for storage and Smiley has made his office in the boiler room. He actually sits next to the water heaters but you get the point.

While I was looking for work my parents offered me a job at their company until they find a replacement for the girl that just left. So I worked full time for them till December and then part time till the beginning of January when they just didn’t have any more work for me to do.

We had Christmas Dinner at our house, our first ever time hosting! It was yummy and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves, but you can never tell, it’s Christmas after all and my family is weird!

Lynda and the boys came down and spent a week with us and that made our suite feel VERY small but we all had a good time and I’m pretty certain the three of us drank WAY too much but at least the wii got a good workout!

I spent most of January feeling frustrated and discouraged and some of February as well. I still didn’t have a job and other than one ok interview and one very bad interview I didn’t have any nibbles! But then Fujitsu came along and I got one of two jobs I applied for and I started last Wednesday! Hooray!

So we’re feeling that we can now “Start the rest of our lives”. We’re in the midst of sorting out a mortgage so we can buy a house, our first ever. And with my new job things won’t be so tight and we can start planning things again. I like a good plan!

So my new job is great…I think. I’ve only been here a week and there is a bit of upheaval happening but I’m sure by this time next week I’ll be slaving away on some task given to me by my project manager…which I’ve yet to get! So in the mean time I’m just trying to do my best and making a hack job of some project schedules.

Z will be 2 and a half next week. I can’t believe how quickly time has flown. He’s such a darling little boy and just as cute as he’s always been! On the 14th we start him at Daycare 3 days a week and I’m sure he’ll be just fine. I really believe a good social environment is important to every child. He has started singing and we can understand so much more of what he is saying to us and he has been potty trained for 6 weeks now with only a handful of accidents.

There will be more to come over the next while (I will blog, I will blog!) but for now this is the beginning of the rest of our lives!

(written on the 2nd of March...not posted till the 23rd! Ooops!)