Here are the things I would like to change about myself.
1) I would like to be less emotional.
I have always been a crier. I would like to be able just to not cry, but that doesn't work for me. I get sad, I cry (obviously!), I get frustrated, I cry, I get mad, I cry, I get overwhelmed, I cry, I get stressed...well, you get the idea! I find that I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be before I had 'Z' but I seem to be getting worse again. I'm putting it down to lack of pregnancy hormones in my body (erm...hun...should we do something about that?). So...how do I stop crying?
2) I would like to be less self absorbed.
Now, this one covers a multitude of sins! LOL! I would like to not tell everyone how I'm feeling every second of every day and what is ailing me at this moment and time. This blog kind of goes against fixing this issue...but only mum reads it and sometimes writing about it helps, right! But whatever...I don't know why I have this incredible need to tell everyone everything about me, good and bad.
I also want to care more about other people and pay more attention to them. Ask them how they are, find out what's important to them and remember that stuff. I know this would make me a better friend.
3) I want to care less about what people think of me.
Hunny, do I look fat in this? erm...who cares right? I need to do what feels right to me. Do I like the outfit, yes...then darn it, wear it!
I need to be confident in all aspects of my life. This includes work. I feel this need to always be told if I'm doing a good job. Obviously for work I put a spin on it and insist that it's important to know where I can improve...but really...I like/need to be praised.
There are other things of course. I would like to lose weight, I would like to eat better and have more energy, I would like to spend more time with my son/husband/dog. All these things...But...internally, those are the big ones and yes, I know they're all related. It all comes down to self worth/love. But how do I get to that place?
